Not like any other week.

The week started with many things breaking down. Monday was my car's power steering oil leaked. Follow by Tuesday, my broadband modem's A/C plug burnt. This isn't the first time though, yet it must become a week of hell. Then today is the classic old PC breakdown. Not just breakdown, it forced me to rewind back to revive my college skills in hardware software troubleshooting.
This blog entry was made while waiting for XP to format and setup a new hard disk drive(HDD) that was meant for my client's PC. Coincidentally, too I made a purchase an original Windows XP DVD on Tuesday when getting the HDD after driving half way across KL to replace a burnt A/C plug.
Tired and hungry and it's raining. Thankfully the laptop is alive and kicking plus the melodious sound from my new Philips HTS kept me going. Oh well, since it's already bad first 3 days, I'll brace myself for more worse issues the next couple of days. I shall wait and see. Peace out babe.

The idea of Guerrilla gamefare!

You've heard of Guerrilla warfare(military) or better known now as terrorist attacks (civilian) term. Recently such tactics were deployed to tiick off MBluer. In fact MB, diligently spent hours playing Nintendo Yoshi Touchware marathon mode in order to enlist all top 8 highscores.

Three weeks prior, I made an effort in disposing MB highscore and successfully charted at 6,300+ meters. Three weeks after, she did it with high flying results. Successfully unseated my spot at a whopping 9,027m! However less than 30 hours from her triumph, 'terrorist' striked again! Now at 9136m. In fact it would be more frustrating to mark my topscore at 9,028 (muhahahah-hyenna laugh!).

In summary, this is the same of the human civilization strive to create law and order in a chaotic universe. It only takes one terror cell to disorganise and strike fear in so many. I do not condone such act of disharmony, yet this is how the world is. Imagine you have arranged all your expenses receipts tidily on the table for minutes. All it takes is a short blow of wind, in a second, throw the neatily arrange stacks into a pile of mess.

Back to Yoshiware, MB threaten to reset the highscores. Similar, like making the effort of sending troops to war knowing that it will surely erase too her own records. That is very similar to how we live our civilize life. End. (p/s: check it out).

Astronaut or Space Tourist

A friend referred me an article reported by The Star Malaysia titled : "Malaysia's first astronaut to do what no one in space has done before" today. Curious and I loaded the article. According to the report, the Malaysia got the space station entry tickets when they purchase military aircrafts from the Russian which means with people's tax money.

It was highlighted that this endeavour allows opportunity to conduct scientific experiments. Practically very much obvious otherwise there isn't any much point where so many developed countries spent billions in building such infrastructure in space just for fun, correct or not?

Then came the highlight of the article is where nobody had done before, play batu seremban, batik painting and make teh tarik in space! Wow, I almost fell off my chair. Some information this is, isn't it? Furthermore, proves a very much laid back culture we are, aren't we? Why not send our proud "astronuts" to space and perhaps 'lepak' do batik printing while sipping teh tarik?

Wouldn't it be much better for Malaysia's image, to report the type of scientific experiments our two proud astronauts' going to perform? Discovering the experience in weight-less-ness, jugglin tin mugs for the very first ever made "teh tarik angkasa lepas". Maybe, that cup of teh tarik or batik may worth some money auction in eBay or maybe Christies.
Malaysia space tourists to-do;

1) Play top / 'gasing'.
2) Make teh tarik.
3) Paint batik.
I would like to suggest to:
4) play congkak.
5) conduct pace walks, why not go and fly kite (Kelantan WAU) and log it into Malaysian Books of Record!
Somehow, I have the feeling that it's very more of a space tourist program than astronaut. Oh well, Malaysia Boleh ma.

Ten "when" possibilites.

I became apparently superstitious recently due to an old tale told by another friend about rock element possibly affects human mood and characteristics. In fact applying the hado theory, it surely does because each molecules within us vibrates at a life frequency. Water, unstable subtance, can store the vibration within and human is mainly made up of water. Therefore, it can be generally for the moment conclude that it may conflict human emotions.

Let's try to answer some questions, shall we?
1) It is possibly safe and happy to see loved ones if been apart for sometime and both know sometimes exhibiting could be uncomfortable.

2) It is possible to glow however with empty stomach, climb moutain also no energy la.

3) It is possible that however excited that we want to share stories, sharing it slowly would be lasting. Last for more conversations to come.

4) Receiving gifts that loved one never bought before, can be strange and strangely his current endeavour similarity to that type of gift, doesn't it? Possibly a very observant person would notice, wouldn't it?

5) Focusing on a particular statement uttered about a never bought property, is unneccesary I believe to the contrary opposite. In fact I find myself at times rude, in which do not condone my act, and that I do apologise. However, I do see myself from time to time to check my mistakes, any possiblity that you can?

6) It is possible to share many things and also to love someone, means share? Only I know you know, that's important.

7) Is it possible to force someone to do something? That's slavery right? In fact, even how uncomfortable when it needs and communicated properly can be done. However, communication at times can be unclear, therefore possible to makesure that happens. Refer to my False Attention entry.

8) Is there possibility of help being rendered if seekd? Recalling the days I was in dire problems, she was the one that really saw me through. That I cannot forget because no matter how tormenting squabbles we had, I always remember that she sticked by me twice without hesistation.

9) Clarity is one possible importance to the pure hearts and arrows as embedded within the diamond. Learning again and again is a good thing. Besides talking, talking and talking, I must listen more often. Is it possible for the opposite to do so?

10) Bad times and good times, can it be possible to stay happy all the time too. However, it is always possible to know I have someone to share happiness and sadness, otherwise there is no point in living.

Love you too.

(p/s: written once without review).

Home made Muck Stick!

A helpful tool during diving. Dubbed as the "muck stick" because it helps divers to balance during photography. It is can also be a life saving tool in case there is strong current. However muck stick got it's name from muck diving which means scuba diving on barren bottom. A retail purchase of this product can cost up to forty ringgit! Yeh, just for a piece of stick.

Anyway, I decided to make one with a buddy's help. He got the metal rod and I found the lash and lock. Total cost was more than 50% less than retail. All it needed was a bit of time and patience to find the materials from stationery shops and metal workshops. I am proud to say, it is quite a successful project afterall. Finally, MikeTan & JoeWong muck stick project complete and now on to UAT this coming Nov 11th to 12th.

Recycling with effort.

Hmmm, will keep this short. The last 4 paragraphs were deleted due to "over length of breath" sentences. I collected recyclable material in the rented house I stay. Plastics, glass and newspaper except aluminium, which is stupid of me because they cost the most!

Surprisingly, for the sale of glassware to local recycling center only reward five cents and they round down the total weight. In total of 44 kg only gets RM2.20. I was at loss. No wonder people just throw away glassware instead of sending it to recycling centers because it was totally heavily inconvenient, utterly worthless, a waste of time, energy and petrol.

From this day onwards, to hell with glassware and say yes to recycling plastics and aluminium. They pay RM1.80 per kg for aluminium.

Weirder Coincidence.

I was rereading one of my past posting - Tuesday morning Ipoh. The inset picture caught my attention.

A year ago, I celebrated her birthday and the restaurant came with this as an new alternative to plain ole birthday cake. Guess what? This year it got weirder. See picture..

Instead of a custard with 1 candle dining in a vicinity of a posh vietnamese restaurant, MondayBluer got an upgrade. A pancake slightly lace with condensed milk, litted with not one but THREE fat non-birthday-like candles. Each symbolized three from not so fat to quite fat scuba diving buddies.

Best of all, she dined within the vicinity of Wayan Restaurant, Tulamben Bali.

Her birthday gift from me (trip). However, the celebration was not my idea and the cake was not from Sao Nam either.

Balut eating

Back in March 2004, I made my maiden voyage to the land where pinoys are pinoys, Philippines. In fact it was a totally unplanned trip with no accomodation booking. Just a bold not so young man, caught a flight by redeeming his fly points from the national ailing air carrier of Malaysia.

Prior to the trip, we have been friends through a Java development project and I came into understanding relationships with three filipinos. They were kind enough to saviour back gifts from their homeland. In fact due to acquired knowledge from AXN fear factor, I got Alan to get me a few 'balut', check out wikipedia - balut. They provide in-depth information on this cooked / fertilized duck eggies.

Now here was a demonstration of eating a balut, by me. See the phone also damn old can prove the year roughly when this pictures were taken.

Step1
Step2
Step3 & 4


In order to enhance flavour, some suggested salt with vinegar. However, I recommend salt and sesame seed oil. Bon appetite people! Oh, it has been more than 18 months since I had my last balut.

Random Saturday Thoughts

Survived my Bali diving trip. Got into a bit of trouble with current during the dive in Crystal Bay. Anyway, not going to bore those (not that there are many)non-diving readers of this blog.

A normal weekend Saturday that started right after the stroke of midnight. MondayBluer was indulge into her Friday evening activity of 'land' swimming. I was trying to very hard focus on a particular project though not much of success failing miserably to many random thoughts of things happening or going to happen around me.

In fact less than 12 hours ago, I really took the effort in updating my Friendster account. Although for months since Dec 2005, I felt it was a daunting task to upkeep another profile site about me even that many of the friends even MondayBluer has a loyal contribution to Friendster. Go check it out: Choon Ee Friendster.

Prior to my Bali diving trip, I was in Redang Island, refining my bouyancy skills. Once back in KL, I indulge myself in a Nintendo DS Lite BLACK! Yes, all black and finger smudgeable Nintendo DS Lite. Since then it was no turning back and more gadgets are coming in, until the final bling charcoal. Ahem, very expensive la and I still cannot buy the idea of the value for the charcoal itself equivalent to a 47-inch plasma TV. Look I am a normal guy who thinks normal guy thinks, therefore, it requires paradigm shift.

Prior to my Redang diving trip, I got my license in July at Perhentian Island. Yes every month from July, I went diving including October.

At the beginning of this entry, I mentioned my failure in focusing on one thing at a time. Here is a short ambigous list of barang I am messing around;
1) Iranian Pipe project
2) QNetwork project.
3) Wedding / Marriage nitty gritties Project
4) AJAX + Joomla + Java refresher Study
5) Sharkey1 & 2 Project
6) MikeTan & JoeWong metal banger project
7) LKIM Project
8) Ladybird Project
9) YK Project
10) TV in Rented Home Project
11) IRICH Tax filing Project
12) Boshuko do for free Project

I believe by categorizing into projects or study is easier to identify. Now I feel much better, however, I must let you know I'll update this list from time to time. In particular this entry.

Oh well concentration lost, guess I'll end it here. If free, check out friendster. Not like you don't know about it right?

False attention.

There is always a moment in me when I question if a person is really listening. Hear but is it listening. Listening but is it understanding. Understanding but does it mean anything?

Decades of evolution in many different languages, yet it takes effort and energy to have effective communication. Communication itself is simple like chit chatting or greeting dialogue. Effective communication, some might say as compassionate listening and speech, only happens when both parties are really relating to one another in speech under relevant context or scope.

I am sensitive when someone gives me false attention or vice versa. It is disappointing when a false attention appear real, later to know that no communication happen. Time wasted too. For example, imagine you explained a situation or event to a friend with date, time and venue. Reaffirmation after reaffirmation, this friend repeatly ask you the same question of when, where and worst, what event.

At this juncture, then comes the moment as mentioned at the beginning of this entry. Is it that the fucker listening with intend to understand or just pretending to give attention for the sake of it? Otherwise can it be an ineffectiveness of myself in conveying the message to that fucker? Now whose the fucker here? Talking is easy, communicatiing is not so easy and effective communication is fucking hard! from my stand point. What about you?

Counting days.

This is another impromtu plus an update entry into a long unupdated blog of mine. Given the recent unemployment and freelancing work I have been doing, I found myself unable to contain my habit of counting days to certain event, anniversaries and even incidents. The rest of this entry I dedicate to those who had known me and who will know me.

Coming September 14th, 2006 I will be revisiting Bali. It was last year, I visited that fascinating island of exotic offerings. It was my first trip to Bali Denpasar 20th to 23rd April 2005. Good food & cheap accomodation. However, exactly 161 days after my departure, the famous tourist places got bombed at Jimbaran and Kuta.

This time's trip, will be going to Tulamben and another island near by for SCUBA diving. It would be exciting because I am doing this with MondayBluer. Common interest wor to make our relationship more common, i think.

In fact it will be exactly 5 years since my last visit to Australia. Remembering the night I departed to Melbourne then followed a connecting flight to Sydney.

Anyway, Bali here I come, Bintang Beer here I come too. Yeh! Oh must get international license...must.

Forgetful or healing crisis?

Recently i failed to heed many things because my thoughts and mind was everywhere. I meant literally every where.

Partly due to the fact that I was reading more for the past 2 weeks compare to last year alone! Unbelievable. Suddenly, I was switched on to seek more thoughts from books. Why?

I am not sure which excited me but I believed it has got to be Dr.Masaru Emoto's book. In fact I finised 3 books in 2 weeks! Surprisingly, I also remember most parts of my reading. Improving myself or it isn't, as far as I enjoy it who cares.

Another thing that dawned on me, is that books are not cheap yet it's a viable investment. Reading to me, allows my mind to create the images and imagine without preceps or boundaries. That excites and coaches the mind to focus.

However, for TV, the images and information is pretty much fixed, presented and fed to the mind. Instead of allowing our minds to imagine, TV imagines it for us. As a result, the mind relaxes and feeds on the ideas. Our brain needs exercise like our muscles, and you can imagine the health repurcations for not having enough exercise? That is why, when you watch soap operas or tv shows for like more than 6 hours straight, you get a numb feeling to continue work, don't you? Try reading a book for 6 hours straight then switch to work on a different task non related to the book you read. Can you relate to the difference? If not, do try it out.

Peace babes.

A change of profile.

It was since March my last post. Miss J is married and with a child on the way. Happy I am for her. Some people I knew in the brunei team already left, about to leave and had quarreledl with the ex'PM'.

Anyway, since the day this blog started, my profile was something like :
"I do not know myself yet. Do you? Do you know who you really are? I am nobody now. Just another one out of 6 over billionth people on this planet called Earth. If I die, it does not matter. It will only matter to just a 0.0000000083% of the Earth's population. I hope this blogs may increase the % a bit more. Chinese Malaysian I.T.Specialist LOST!
temporarily".

Now changed because of reasons I cannot reveal in this blog. However, the answer lies in imnir.blogspot.com and iwantlist.blogspot.com.

Pray.

I don't kneel down next to the bed and pray every night or go all the way to say blessings during meal. However, from time to time, I do have silent prayers. For instance while driving and seeing an old person crossing the road, I'd say a little prayer, hoping good will come to that person. Sometimes when I see people sitting by the road side, begging for money. The silent prayers in me would forward my hope that they will be 'shown' or see a way to make a better living.

Anyway, today my silence prayer shall be enblog in yonderzone because it's relevant to me and not many visit this blog of mine therefore, can be quite private. Ok I pray that the submission for an online art contest wins the prize. Although the prize is attractive, yet most important;y is, it proves that I have a natural and creative sense of artistry. Please, I pray it be real.

This reminds me back in 1987, I won a yellow F&N school bag. In fact, I did not remember submitting an entry nor even get recognize for a prize. Seeing it as one of my unconcious achievements, I didn't persue that nor anyone in my family encourage me to follow my heart. Yet, as time went by, I took a different turning to become who I am today. Similarly, it is also a shot in the dark of my choice in profession. Nevertheless, over the years and still I am lying to my very self because I don't see that I am good at anything I am doing professionally. Others can comment that I am good at this and that. At times also said I am wasting my talent (technical) qualification doing something else. Given a choice for anybody, forgetting any economical or financial restrain, would you have chosen to be yourself or be where the trend heading to?

I will be lying to myself even more if I really win this conteest because never in my life I have win or recognise this grandly. Ultimately this means if 10 years ago, I have followed my dream and find the ways to make it a profession, I would have very much be doing what I loved to do most.

Therefore, I pray to prove that I have lied to myself for so many years. Let the lie be truth and I shall be changed forever. Amen!

Exposed weeney blue frog

I was watching the music video of Popcorn, in it was Mr.Crazy Frog. In case you dunno what frog this is or perhaps you are new arrivals to Earth, check out wikipedia-crazyfrog. for more information. Nevertheless, the point is that crazy frog contributed some serious marketing, branding and franchising revenue to the creator.

Remarkably to some it's a very annoying addictive frog. The tunes that the creator iterated in their music is the repetition of Beverly Hills Cop and TV Pendidikan Malaysia. Therefore, the year 2005 has given its fair share of brilliance in music industry and absurdly fast became millionaire in selling just pixels. Absolutely phenomenal people behind both these ideas.

Million dollar ideas like these are very much frustrating to me, watching it realize by others and yet I am struggling from where I am. The "what if"s kept on and on. Looking it from another angle, I am no different because we have the same physiologies. Therefore, I lay this to blame to culture and society to begin with. However, as fair as I can say, I do have the time and let the rest is up to me, an individual, like yourself to change and not be held down.

If you are not happy of your life and things you do, stand up, look and walk around for a better chair. Don't get too comfortable because as to repeating this will make it a habit. HABIT is very cruel when they are bad.

Can paper and coin money be replaced?

We are now so used to the idea of internet banking. Virtually money moved from one place to another by just credit debit accounts control by algorithm made up with binary code.

Imagine one day, no more cash or pennnies in circulation. Basically virtual credit is transacted via plastic cards and finally putting an extinction of paper and coin money. If you think about it, the money we use now is currently representing the gold or silver reserves of a government. Unfortunately after reading WHY DOES MONEY HAVE VALUE? which
makes my statement used to be true.

Anyway, I am just pondering the idea of no more physical money and only cash credits. What will the world be like? Imagine those coins we collect would be very rare and may even cost 1000 times the tender value it holds.

Darn, think about the implications and the changes that may take on then. What if suddenly every soul on earth is reprogrammed that money is no value at all? Everyone will do something for others for free as long as a person has food, drink and entertainment. Would this chain services or trade product ever continue without money?

Victoria Secret.

Did u see the latest Victoria Secrets Model show a week before Christmas? I so much want to be a back stage audience. Backstage audience passes should be promoted in order to boost the popularity of the already damn popular lingerie of Victoria Secrets.

Imagine just standing there quietly observing the settings and co-ordination of models, designers and supporting staffs. Now that would be a priceless gift to any man alive on Earth in the century.

After a long absence.

Laziness prevented me from updating blog. I quit my job, started a trading business and established a service propreitorship. QN business is my primary focus in learning because of many things. I learn to communicate to people and helping others to see a new concept of owning a vehicle to generate capital. However I find society in general, are skeptical, fearful and tend to spread negativity.

Do you realise it is more interesting to bad mouth about something or someone? If you read the newspaper or watch TV news, I bet most of the headlines are bad news. Don't believe me? Try it!
You may wonder why. The answer may be simply that bad news sell plus it's difficulty to cultivate positivity especially when our time is getting shorter by the day. Therefore, it can be hard but not impossible for the population to accept the idealogy in general. Prior to this there were already damage being done by others and it's a stigma now for most who thinks like an industrialist!

Other possibility is the overall survival instinct of a smaller population per square kilometer country may have people there who are complacent, too comfortable and reluctant to change.

Another point would be parents' industrial mindset may have influence direct or indirectly to their children whom in present did not realise that time has change. Holding on to traditional believes may end up trap in what we call - middle income threat.

Sorry for the sudden burst of thoughts of my view towards society in general. It is obvious for many who has boss(es), should consider their current career is merely a stepping stone. Gone were the days where job security&stability means something. No one can predict a certain future but everyone has the power to decide at present which route to change so that their future is predictably successful.