Have we got it?

Have you ever ponder about things we have done and the result of it that made us who we might be but in fact we are not?

Let me put it this way. When I was 9, I drew some really abstract stuff and framed it nicely. At that point in time, I have created something original. Hey I will be an artist someday and what do you know I am not. In fact I have gone a bit better. Using graphical tools very professionally to make fake claim receipts. Not something that I am particularly proud off, just a chinese trade blood I have in forging receipts. Knowing that art has nothing to do with this, but creativity is part of it.

I thought I can be a great computer skilled person. Took on 4 years worth of college and university education to earn me a degree in something that totally forgot by the time I was 22. In turn, I am just adapting to situation wherever I go. Academically I am rusty, but good renumeration. Hence I cannot complain about pay despites all the odds. However, sometimes I wonder are there other souls who are earning more than me and thinks like I am right now?

Two years ago by my stupid decision, I bought a video camera. Wasted my credits on it and never look back since. Experimented on video editing and was able to impress lots of non-techie or people in this field. Hey! I may be a good film editor. Suddent thought that my artistic side is back for me conquer on the world. Sadly, the flame died down. Too tired and financially burden. Didn't work out either.

Sometimes, whenever I see people succeed. It does make me think they might have found it. Yes, the very thing that drives them to success. But do they really get it or they think they have got it and manage to show they have it. We want to be it but just lazy to do anything about it.

I guess its a never ending quest for us to search for something we do best and thats about it.